Dinner with Einstein

German sausage and quantum physics

I am afraid. The chance of being murdered is increasing with each news bulletin. Once-every-one-hundred-year disasters are happening weekly. The longer I live, the more likely I will get cancer. Aeroplanes are the safest way to travel, but that’s trashing the planet. I’ll never be able to buy a house until sea level rises high enough to make beachfront properties worthless.

There are no boundaries. The only black and white is in old movies. Love/hate, male/female, yes/no are all open to interpretation. I don’t have the insight to work out who to trust in the crowds of people selling answers.

Anyone can claim to be a genius, but I think all the real ones are dead. I’d like to sit down to dinner with somebody like Albert Einstein and ask him a few questions, like how does he know that the speed of light is constant?

Seems to me that light is smarter than Mr Einstein. Just like us, he could’ve been fooled by light bending and reflecting; tricking his brain into putting a thing in one place when it was really somewhere else. Perhaps, if he wasn’t wearing his glasses, he’d reach for a dining chair, but his hand would pat the air.

I want to ask him, “How do we know that nothing can travel faster than the speed of light? We’ll never catch it, so we’ll never know if it exists.”

His voice won’t be grumpy through the bushy moustache I’ve seen in photos of him. It will be soft and playful as he tries to explain to me, “I never said the speed of light was constant. It was only a theory, but the scientists who came after me have turned my theory into law. Newton and Faraday wrote laws. I wrote ideas.”

Poor Einstein: the reluctant messiah.

I wonder what we’d eat for dinner. German sausage and sauerkraut, with mashed potato and gravy would be good comfort food. There might be a dog under the table, sitting on our feet and waiting for a morsel of sausage to drop. Or a cat, staking its territory by winding its elastic body through the table legs. Maybe I should get a pet.

A conversation with Einstein would be more about philosophy than physics. His equations were the essence of brilliant thoughts, but I’m not that smart. I have to think in words, so I try to impress him.

“So, Albert,” I say, “What about Schrodinger’s cat? How can it be dead and alive at the same time in a closed box? Are we supposed to believe that the fate of the cat depends on who looks at it? If I open the box, I  want the cat to be alive. Would my wish keep it alive, or would it be dead anyway?”

Over a few glasses of red wine, he explains how Schrodinger’s box doesn’t hold any reality, only the possibility of two realities: a live cat and a dead cat.

“When we open the box to look inside,” he says, “then one of those possibilities becomes reality.”

“But it’s only opinion,” I protest. “Your theory of relativity tells us that the position of the observer affects what’s seen. So, reality isn’t fixed. What if I’m in the box? Does my fate depend on who opens the box?”

“Ahh! Many realities,” he says thoughtfully, nodding at his hand holding a fork full of food. “But yours is the most important to you. You would probably know if you were dead or alive.”

Oh, yes! He’s a wily one, this celebrity genius. Somehow, I have to find a way to explain that being dead isn’t the problem. I need to want to be alive.

“What’s the point of knowing I’m not dead? I have no power over what happens in my life. How can I find a place with prospects to look forward to?”

His thick, grey eyebrows frown to shade the twinkle of fun in his eyes. “Finding? Looking? These are observations. How you interpret them will define what comes next.”

“Some people believe we can change our lives with positive affirmations.”

He scoffs, “Mantras might help us concentrate on what’s important to us, but they can’t warp space and time to create the impossible.”

In my world, the impossible is happening every day. Princes are working as waiters while actors are playing at running countries. An invincible athlete is defeated by a novice, and a mother of three is killed by an insect.

“I wish…”

“Wishes have no place in the practical world. There is theory, and the mathematics of probability, but no science for wishes.”

He’s an old-fashioned gentleman, so wouldn’t interrupt me like that. What I wish for is a formula to show me how to turn fear into nothing. I’ve seen complicated equations work out to equal zero.

“Problem is,” I say, “an equation needs a constant to be any use. But there are no constants in the world. Everything is changing.”

“Exactly! There’s no way to write an equation for a future reality.”

Even Einstein can’t help me. The food will go dry in my mouth. I’ll take a big drink of water to say, “Concentration is focus. What we focus on is what we’ll take with us into our future. Then, maybe we can believe we’ve created our own reality.”

“Memories define pleasure and pain,” he says wisely, gazing into the distance to see if truth is lurking there.

“Memories don’t count.” I say. “They can’t change what will happen to us.”

I see why sausage and mash is my comfort food. It reminds me of the time when my parents were happy and we were a real family. We would eat winter meals sitting around the stove in the kitchen; safe and warm; cared for.

That’s my last memory of life without fear. Anxiety would have been there, but I didn’t feel it. My parents would have had their own fears. At least they didn’t have the worries of their parents’ generation. There was no risk of dying in a war, or living without social security.

If they had paid more attention to the timeless threat that love doesn’t last, then possibly they could still be friends. Even devotion from a pet doesn’t last. If I get a dog, it will die before I do.

What would Einstein be afraid of? Perhaps being persecuted for his Jewish heritage, or blamed for inventing the atomic bomb. He wasn’t a promising youth, and grew into brilliance. But, even then, he knew that E = mc2 was only a beginning.

He never found a unified formula to explain the universe. Perhaps he was afraid that reaching his true potential was impossible, just like me. I’ve wasted my education, missed opportunities, and bungled friendships. I don’t want to be a failure, but that’s what I am.

“I’m not rich enough, or smart enough to change my reality to suit me,” I confess. “I’m trapped.”

“Trapped!” He looks at me with patient amusement. “You are trapped by fear.”

I know he escaped war-time atrocities and political bullying. He wouldn’t understand my world of peace and extravagant promise. “It’s too hard to hold onto happiness. Nothing is forever.”

“Everything is forever, in your past, present or future. You only see the present, so better pay attention. Are you going to jump on the train, or watch it go by? It’s up to you to decide on the best choice for you.”

It must feel so comfortable to be a person like Einstein, knowing you’ve survived to old age with the choices you’ve made. If I make the wrong choices, dying isn’t the worst thing that could happen to me. Living would be worse.

“I’m afraid to make the wrong choice.”

“You are afraid of change.” His eyes crinkle with a smile to try to lighten the weight of the truth. “But you have to change if you want to take fear out of your future.”

I serve my favourite dessert: chocolate and champagne. “They say it gives you the same feel-good feelings as love.”

“That would have to be very good quality champagne, or second-rate love,” he says with a mischievous grin.

“Is a pet second-rate love?”

Looking after a pet might take my mind off other worries. Perhaps, I’ll decide to get a dog, and learn how to love it, even if it is going to die before me.

I open the champagne and pour it. He watches it fizz and settle to a sparkle, takes a sip, then watches light play through the glass and bubbles. I see him working on mindful observation.

Raising my glass, I say, “Here’s to wishful thinking.”


NZ Society of Authors, Top of the South Branch, 2018 Short Story Competition sponsored by  Page & Blackmore booksellers of Nelson.

This is a revision of the original story submitted to competition. Published in the NZSA Top of the South Horizons anthology

Original version with judge, Catherine Chidgey’s, comments is here…

4 Replies to “Dinner with Einstein”

  1. Einstein never really approved of the Schrodinger’s cat dichotomy. The theory is really about particles, at the quantum level. The particle may be there or not, only when the observer looks does the wave-function collapse, showing the catticle to be deadicle or not.
    The observer totally interferes with the experiment by the very fact of observing.
    Einsteins reply to the conundrum was that he did not believe God plays dice.

    1. Wow, you’ve studied the theories in much more depth than me. That was my interpretation, not Einstein’s. Never let the truth get in the way of a good story.

  2. Makes interesting reading but not sure what it all means. It didn’t make me feel warm and fuzzy but I do marvel at your intellect!

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